Life goes on

It has been quite some time since I had to travel for work. When I started the job with my current company I was on the road probably 75-80% of the time. I was never in the office. It was a challenge to say the least. I quickly despised business travel and travel for that matter. Not sleeping in your own bed, not being in your routine wears on you after a while. That said, I have some funny stories of my travels and have had the opportunity to see some amazing places. “Bravo Mademoiselle” still rings in my ears when I think of my French Marathon nearly 2 years ago. I’ve run nearly all over the country, some places better than others.

Today I head to Boston. I’m looking more forward to running along the Charles tomorrow morning than any other part of the trip. Well that and the sushi. Boston is a great city; it’s just a bear to get there. 4 ½ hour flight there in a middle seat isn’t ideal. It is however hard to complain when you are being paid half of your work day to sit and read. I saw on the news last night about a girl assaulted at an airport for coughing on a plane. I would feel very sorry for anybody trying to assault me right now. I have a few words for this person: Bring It On.

Some day here my blog will turn back to normal, whatever normal means. Back to the everyday experiences, the running (which made me create it in the first place), life, the joys of living and breathing Colorado air, burros, snowboarding powder, Boulder sunrises, good food, great coffee, and the like. I admit though that all things look very different to me now. I haven’t laughed like I used to. Most nights are spent reading. The joy of this gorgeous place I am blessed to live in, isn’t as bright as is used to be. I wonder if that will ever change.

Everyone tells me that things take time. Time. What a funny word. I used to believe I had all the time in the world. Time to sit back and let life live me. Time to allow things to happen on their own. For some reason now this anxiousness has now entered my conscious. Hurry up. Get it all done. Find your happiness now. Then I try to slow down and remember that happiness cannot be searched out. It has been here all along. I just need to allow it to show its face again. That will be a challenge.

Our minds are miraculous things. Controlling our thoughts…well I could spend a lifetime trying to master that. I admit that my mind goes a million miles a minute. I’m sure most people would agree. I don’t regret things as much as I used to. I don’t care what others think. I rarely get feelings of shame or embarrassment. Why should we? This is where things are today.

Truth is what happened in the past has shaped us today but they don’t define us today. Today is all I have. And today I head to Boston. I’ll cozy up in my middle seat, pretend there aren’t two complete strangers on either side of me, and I will read. And I’ll be back in beautiful Boulder before I know it where life…well life goes on.